I tried to ...

I tried to feel alive.... I hurt from the inside out.

Where d...

Where does the light mix with the dark..... Im hurt that she takes control, That I cant come home until she says, Hunger eats at the lining of my stomach, Tears fill up behind empty eyes, And maybe if I sit really still They would overflow into my lungs And I would drown. She took every picture of me off the fridge. Now the lecture. Why do I get punished for his mistakes Why do I get the evil eye? Silence overpowers my body As I plan my next step. That knife looks so fucking inviting Stay away... I must warn you that I am not right

Try to forget

Poison kills this colored heartAs my mind slips into a bright spinMy eyes fight to stay wideAnd my hands they gripDrink from the bottle Till u can see the endAnd the pain is gone Only till my stomach turns As this toilet bowl is my only friendTears because I let you downAs you say it will be alrightAnd memories that blur into the night

Just a sick saturday night

Wow last night was.....ummmm interesting. So my parents are outta town! I had people over we had a good time....till I got sick....enough said ; ) Hope everyone that was at my house enjoyed themselfs! Anyways next topic....WE HAVE NEXT WEEK OFF!!!!!!!!!! I need some away time from school and hurt. More time to sit on my ass lol.

Recap

So last night kelly and I didnt really know what we were going to do. The Phoenix had a shitty show going on and it was a waste of money....So instead we went and rented a movie like we have done every friday night for the past 3 weeks and then we didnt watch it. Sad news our video friend isnt going to be working there anymore. He always knew the movies that we like, now we have to find them on our own! sad stuff. Anywhoooo we ended up going over to bretts house where kelly learned to play guitar. We heard the same song a million times! haha I love u kelly u did good!Then kelly past out leaving brett and I to talk about how shitty life is. Kelly woke up after a good 2 hours and got in on our convo and we just chilled and listened to music. It was a very chill evening. My parents left this morning for the weekend! Could be some fun stuff happening here later tonight... I dunno we will see. Yea so that was my friday night! I hope everyone else had a good friday. O and dont forget that next week we have a friday the 13th!!!!!!!!I love everyone even if they hate me!

So I ...

So I just went to put on a cd and realized that I couldnt listen to it because of all the memories atached to it. Now I have a big stack of cds that I cant listen to because they make me upset! Great am I a freak or what!? Im messed up inside and the only person who I feel can help wont. P.S. Im cant come vist u tyler....and I know u arnt coming to see me. So we will plan another time I guess : (

Tyler I k...

Tyler I know u already posted this song but its my fav one by u and I am feeling in the mood to remember summer. So heres the song.Drive Home With Thoughts of Youby Tyler HanesWhite feather falls making night drift by,Silver polls lead me on till I fall, Peddle pushed to far, kissing the dusty floor, I lean into this Northern wind with reflecting light that leads me back to you,Feeling it all in my led drawn fall, Can you stay and see if my heart makes it down with the rest of me,Tears pressed to my hair yelling to my ears,"I believe it's you!"And this Red and green will lead me home,Wave your hand and whisper your sweet good byes,Can I scream above this blaze, "meet me soon!,"Will you meet me soon?As I slid, As I slid,Asphalt fails and gravel slips, Steering with my failing grip,Brakes lock and my stomach lifts,Filling my empty chest with an acidic burn,And road signs scream of how I lived for you,But my heart it drags behind,you hooked it with your stary eyes,I feel it tug, can you feel it tug,Bring me home from this white line dream,As I fall,Bring me home!As I fall,Bring me home!Skid mark road and my skid mark heart,Start this spark to take me home,Take me home..................with you.