I got...

I got new shoes today...Kelly and I just needed to get away from life for a while. We spent money and hung with all the friends we have made in different stores. I didnt think once about having to leave. I made it into my lil world where I didnt have to deal with the drama of high school.EHHHH! Sooo I feel kinda shitty. Im not sure why. Its Zachs birthday this weekend and Im not going to vist. O well I called him the other day to talk but he wasnt home : (I was really excited about my parents going away this weekend. I figured that I would just have some people come and chill with me. Things arnt going the way I thought. So maybe I will chill with myself this weekend. I can be my own best friend.I feel sick and I still have another day of school." If I werent here right now who would care? Thats how I feel. Im nothing. Sitting in the dark, I cant see a thing. I sit in a bathtub without water. Feeling the cold tile that surrounds my body. Feel the pain on my legs. Let the blood drip out of me. Cutting at my flesh. I sit alone in a pool of my blood. Cut away till Im gone." From a short story I wrote for english ( not about me ). I got an A+ : )

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David this is for u and all the people that dont think I write normal shit!Today I woke up went to school and hated it. We had a fucking movie thing on drugs and shit...For every one that goes to Analy dont u wanna stop doing E and drinking listerine now? hahaI saw people and got my daily hugs.Kelly and Jessie and I went out to lunch for kells birthday D's has the best milkshakes!Came home and sat on my ass That was my day....now u see why I dont write about my boring life?P.S. Ant If u read this, U made me smile today...thank you

I should w...

I should write something happy...Nope couldnt think of anything!Dont worry Im still smiling

Drop

Endless cold runs through my bloodIm sick and feelings take over my mindI want to feel the pain Water runs into my lungs and I want to stop breathingClose off the airways and stop the thinkingI am drowning as I feel my body fallDown DownSo tired of this dropWho will catch me from this suicide jump?Toes curl over the edge Shattered glass Like my shattered life Let the pieces lie where they lay.

I have to be...

I have to be their rockTheir perfect lil girlWho does no wrong They already have a rebellious sonWho dares to dance on the wild side But my innocence is slipping away And I feel the dance coming on myself.

Summer

Its getting late and all I can think about is how much I dont want to go to sleep. If I go to bed now morning will come all to soon and I have nothing to wake up for. I hate school and most the people there. I dont spend enough time with the people I love. Today was boring as hell and lonely. Kelly and Ali didnt come to school leaving me feeling shitty and alone. Sad to think that it has come to this point. Im ready for summer......

Untill I Die

In a world full of people....who am I trying to impress?