Just a sick saturday night

Wow last night was.....ummmm interesting. So my parents are outta town! I had people over we had a good time....till I got sick....enough said ; ) Hope everyone that was at my house enjoyed themselfs! Anyways next topic....WE HAVE NEXT WEEK OFF!!!!!!!!!! I need some away time from school and hurt. More time to sit on my ass lol.

Recap

So last night kelly and I didnt really know what we were going to do. The Phoenix had a shitty show going on and it was a waste of money....So instead we went and rented a movie like we have done every friday night for the past 3 weeks and then we didnt watch it. Sad news our video friend isnt going to be working there anymore. He always knew the movies that we like, now we have to find them on our own! sad stuff. Anywhoooo we ended up going over to bretts house where kelly learned to play guitar. We heard the same song a million times! haha I love u kelly u did good!Then kelly past out leaving brett and I to talk about how shitty life is. Kelly woke up after a good 2 hours and got in on our convo and we just chilled and listened to music. It was a very chill evening. My parents left this morning for the weekend! Could be some fun stuff happening here later tonight... I dunno we will see. Yea so that was my friday night! I hope everyone else had a good friday. O and dont forget that next week we have a friday the 13th!!!!!!!!I love everyone even if they hate me!

So I ...

So I just went to put on a cd and realized that I couldnt listen to it because of all the memories atached to it. Now I have a big stack of cds that I cant listen to because they make me upset! Great am I a freak or what!? Im messed up inside and the only person who I feel can help wont. P.S. Im cant come vist u tyler....and I know u arnt coming to see me. So we will plan another time I guess : (

Tyler I k...

Tyler I know u already posted this song but its my fav one by u and I am feeling in the mood to remember summer. So heres the song.Drive Home With Thoughts of Youby Tyler HanesWhite feather falls making night drift by,Silver polls lead me on till I fall, Peddle pushed to far, kissing the dusty floor, I lean into this Northern wind with reflecting light that leads me back to you,Feeling it all in my led drawn fall, Can you stay and see if my heart makes it down with the rest of me,Tears pressed to my hair yelling to my ears,"I believe it's you!"And this Red and green will lead me home,Wave your hand and whisper your sweet good byes,Can I scream above this blaze, "meet me soon!,"Will you meet me soon?As I slid, As I slid,Asphalt fails and gravel slips, Steering with my failing grip,Brakes lock and my stomach lifts,Filling my empty chest with an acidic burn,And road signs scream of how I lived for you,But my heart it drags behind,you hooked it with your stary eyes,I feel it tug, can you feel it tug,Bring me home from this white line dream,As I fall,Bring me home!As I fall,Bring me home!Skid mark road and my skid mark heart,Start this spark to take me home,Take me home..................with you.

I got...

I got new shoes today...Kelly and I just needed to get away from life for a while. We spent money and hung with all the friends we have made in different stores. I didnt think once about having to leave. I made it into my lil world where I didnt have to deal with the drama of high school.EHHHH! Sooo I feel kinda shitty. Im not sure why. Its Zachs birthday this weekend and Im not going to vist. O well I called him the other day to talk but he wasnt home : (I was really excited about my parents going away this weekend. I figured that I would just have some people come and chill with me. Things arnt going the way I thought. So maybe I will chill with myself this weekend. I can be my own best friend.I feel sick and I still have another day of school." If I werent here right now who would care? Thats how I feel. Im nothing. Sitting in the dark, I cant see a thing. I sit in a bathtub without water. Feeling the cold tile that surrounds my body. Feel the pain on my legs. Let the blood drip out of me. Cutting at my flesh. I sit alone in a pool of my blood. Cut away till Im gone." From a short story I wrote for english ( not about me ). I got an A+ : )

Blah

David this is for u and all the people that dont think I write normal shit!Today I woke up went to school and hated it. We had a fucking movie thing on drugs and shit...For every one that goes to Analy dont u wanna stop doing E and drinking listerine now? hahaI saw people and got my daily hugs.Kelly and Jessie and I went out to lunch for kells birthday D's has the best milkshakes!Came home and sat on my ass That was my day....now u see why I dont write about my boring life?P.S. Ant If u read this, U made me smile today...thank you

I should w...

I should write something happy...Nope couldnt think of anything!Dont worry Im still smiling

Drop

Endless cold runs through my bloodIm sick and feelings take over my mindI want to feel the pain Water runs into my lungs and I want to stop breathingClose off the airways and stop the thinkingI am drowning as I feel my body fallDown DownSo tired of this dropWho will catch me from this suicide jump?Toes curl over the edge Shattered glass Like my shattered life Let the pieces lie where they lay.