Bitter

I want a body to curve to mine. Bend to fit me. I pick this path thats cracked because its familiar. This lithium coated path is to new. I am scared to fix myself with sugar coated pills. Then what would I have to think about. Use my brain as a hideaway. Where is the person that cares? I just want someone out of this sick world to hold me close, to show me that I am worth the time. Don't push me away. I break easily. Why do I let myself get used. Im just looking for the person who wants to let me stay close while they let time drift away. Ash scorn heart. Touch my wound and tell me its beautiful. Im scared to get better alone. Thats what I am right now, alone from even the closest of people. Feel the flame and lick the salted tears. Hide the crude smile behind sunny days. Make me beautiful with painted words. Pick the scabs and let the blood run cold. Ash your kisses. Hide away in the perfect X.12/22/03